Comforter

“Comforter”

The other night I was trying to sleep when all of a sudden I was just overcome with sadness. I couldn’t sleep, all I could do was just tell God I was sorry and ask for forgiveness. I had been so busy that week. There were so many noises going on inside of my head.

When I did have some quiet time, I didn’t choose to fill it with God. Instead I choose to fill it with mindless activities. And I could tell it in my spirit. There was just this unrest in me.

I had been busy and I chose to be busy. If I’m busy then its easier to not focus on what’s hurting me. I had a lot hurting me and I didn’t want to think about it. I didn’t want to deal with it.

That’s when I felt God whisper this to my heart. “Do you truly let Me comfort you?” To honestly answer that question, at that moment, I would have had to say no.

Do I go to God and talk to Him about what’s hurting me? Yes. Do I read scripture to encourage me and to help pull me through? Yes. But, do I just sit and let him wrap his arms around me & just love on me? No. By nature, I am a doer. I pray, I read scripture, I pursue God. But one thing I don’t do well is doing nothing.

That’s when I realized that there are times that we don’t have to be doing something. Sometimes in the middle of the hurt we just need to sit at His feet. And when we do that, it allows Him to comfort us.

When your child is hurting, I know as a momma I want to know what’s wrong! I want to hug and kiss them and tell them it will be okay and that we will get through it together. That comforts my child. Why would God, our Heavenly Father be any different.

“Whenever my busy thoughts were out of control, the soothing comfort of your presence calmed me down and overwhelmed me with delight.”

Psalms 94:19 TPT

The song “The More I Seek You” dropped in my mind as I was writing this devotion, specifically this part:

“I want to sit at your feet. Drink from the cup in your hand

Lay back against you and breathe, feel your heart beat. This love is so deep, its more than I can stand. I melt in your peace, its overwhelming”

These words made me realize that when I think of seeking, I think of it as us doing something to find what we’re looking for.

Then this hit me! When my kids have a hard day, they don’t want to have to come home and clean their room, or do dishes. Those are tasks that take them away from me. My daughter especially wants to be with me. She wants to cuddle on the couch and just be with me.

This made me stop and realize that the doing that God  sometimes desires the most is just us sitting at his feet & resting in His presence. Us laying back into God’s embrace and letting Him comfort us. When we truly let Him comfort us, we will find overwhelming peace. Overwhelming peace that takes away the hurt, the fear, the anxiety and all the questions.

“The Lord is my best friend and my shepherd. I always have more than enough. He offers a resting place for me in his luxurious love. His tracks take me to an oasis of peace, the quiet brook of bliss.” 

Psalms 23:1-2 TPT

One thing that I needed reminded of was that I needed to let God comfort me. And when I did, the tension, chaos & questions melted and were replaced with His perfect peace.

Music for Reflection: The More I Seek You by Kari Jobe